I've Been Burned

Let's see how many times have I burned myself today:-

• Burned myself with hot water in the shower
• Burned my mouth with green tea, maybe next time I should of let it cool down a bit.
• Taking the laundry outta the dryer
• While cooking, TWICE, need to learn not to touch the pot in the oven without oven mits/ and watch out for boiling water.
• And the steam from the iron

Maybe Im just too hot today lol

I really need to stop messing with hot things. Luckily no burn marks.

This reminds me of the time I literallyt branded myself when I was 11 year old. I was working in my dad's restaurant making french fries. I went to take the french fries out of the deep fryer and was shaking the excess oil off of them. Outta nowhere the basket bounces off the back of the deep fryer and hits me on my chin. I tried everything, and I ended up with a scar that look exactly like the Nike logo. My brothers kept making fun of me saying that Im property of Nike now lol. I walked around for weeks with my hijab covering my chin. Now the scar is barely noticeable.

It seems I haven't learned my lesson with hot things yet.

I'm Officially a Driver...well almost

I just got my learner's permit yesterday. Yay for me!!! So now I can LEGALLY learn how to drive. Ive been practicing for the longest and Im already prepared to take my road test. Hell, I should just take it tomorrow. Well I'll give it 2 weeks then take it. Better to be prepared right? No need to rush it.

The only thing I don't like about having my permit is my picture. I made the biggest mistake. When I was leaving the house it just completely slipped my mind that I have to take a photo for my permit, otherwise I would have re thought about the hijab I wore. I had on a white underscarf, with a black shayla. Something similar to the picture but without the designs:

Now Im not saying that its bad to wear that combination, it looks pretty chic. But when you have a big head like me, white just makes it look a lot bigger and on camera it just magnifies it even more. So you could only imagine what my photo looks like. My head takes up the whole space.

Now Im wondering if I could retake it, hmm...........

Niqab vs. Batman

Have any of you who wear niqab ever had a child ask you that or thought you were some superhero or villian? Well not the batman part, but why was I wearing a mask, it's not halloween yet. Kids....gotta love them.

I'm Missing My Niqab

No I haven't lost my niqab nor did I destroy it. I just miss wearing it. I felt so secure in it. If you ever been to NY you could understand my reason why I wore it. Men have no shame, especially a lot of Muslim men (not all of them), and they used to always say things about how pretty I was or tried to give me their number, all that crap. I took it off mainly for work and those comments started to come back but I just dealt with it. Now Im living somewhere where I don't really need it. People are a lot more respectful and have manners. I haven't had that stare or weird look from people. I still wear my abaya and haven't heard anything.

So Im wondering will it still be the same here if I wore niqab?

I don't really think so. I live in a military town. There is an army base and air force base right where I live (my husband used to be in the air force so that's why we are here til he finishes his degree). And there isn't a big Muslim community at all. Sometimes I feel my husband and I are the only ones. I know people will start being uncomfortable and give me the 'stare' if they saw me with my face covered. They might start with the whole terrorist thing. Boy have I heard that soo many times.

My husband says its my choice if I want to do it and he wouldn't care either way as long as I was happy. Im just torn between should I do it or should I not. I don't really care what people say to an extent, but I just don't wanna put either of us in a bad predicament. I just miss the beauty of it, how good I felt that no one else could see me besides my family, how I felt like I was in my own little world all my own .

So I guess I wont wear it for now, until we move to a bigger city next year, where there is a bigger Muslim population. There is certainly strength in numbers, I guess. I think we see others doing it and being around other Muslims, it gives you the motivation to do it. We'll see what happens.

A Hug Goes a Long Way

I absolutely love hugs. It makes me feel all happy and warm and fuzzy. I remember before I married my husband, he had asked me what made me happy and I said hugs. So I was in my bedroom watching TV because my hubby was doing homework in the living room, so I didn't wanna disturb him.
All of sudden he comes in the rooms and just gives me the biggest bear hug and I started kissing my face. I said what was that for? He says I know hugs make you happy and I wanna see you happy and I love when you are in my arms cuz that makes me happy. I wanted to cry and it put the biggest smile ever.
This is why I love him, the little things he does. He isn't perfect, no one is, but I accept him for who he is. Even thought we dont sleep in the same bed, it doesn't mean he doesn't care. Showing love means more than just saying it.

Alhamdulillah, I married the right man.

**Sorry for the lovey dovey post, but just needed to get that out**

My Ebay Find

I found this abaya yesteday on ebay. Don't you just love ebay.

An elegant abaya made with soft flowing poly crepe material, light weight and easy to maintain
Comes with matching chiffon shayla (appx. 23"W x 72"L) & a standard valcro closure niqab .

I love the colors of the embroidery, very colorful. Check out the seller's store here (Nabila's Collection) to see available sizes and other items. Luckily this one is a Buy Now item, so you don't have to bid on it. It's just $39.99 and shipping is just $8.95. Not bad, not bad at all.

Am I wrong?

Can someone please tell me if Im overreacting or askinf for too much. Is it too much too ask myhusband to sleep in the same bed as me? Is too much to wanna be comforted by him? Is it wrong for a husband to try and please his wife?
May someone answer that because apparently the answers Ive given are completely wrong. I thought husbands and wives slept in the same bed, besides for those who have more than one wife.
Isn't that why they call it a marital bed.

Im having a hard time with it, Im trying to be an obedient wife and understand, but its hard because it's making me upset. And no matter how much I try to say so, I feel like its falling on deaf ears. He says that Im a violent sleeper, which I know Im not because my ex-husband slept with me in the same bed and never ever complained. And that I disturb his sleep and I dont see how. He doesn't like for me to touch him while he sleeps, which I found out the hard way the other night, which doesn't bother me too much but everything else does. Maybe Im the wrong one, but Im so confused about it.

A husband is really only suppose to separate from his wife in their bed if he is angry at her, but this isn't the case. He said he isn't angry at me, so what's the problem.

Sorry for rambling but Im just a bit confused by it all and don't know what to do? Im trying to win his affection, I do everything that a wife is suppose to do, what is it that Im not doing?
Any advice would be greatly appreciated.

My Beauty Faves

Just felt like sharing some of my fave beauty products that I j'adore at this moment

Lotion

Bath and Body Works is the way to go. They have the most amazing stuff ever, a for a reasonable price. I like them a whole lot better than Victoria's Secret, even though the are part of the same Limited Brands Co. (I used to work there so I know and I used to get a discount there, that's the only part I miss about the job). Some of my faves :

I love the scent of Black Raspberry Vanilla and Sweat Pea. I don't really like fruity scents but this has just the right amount fruityness and sweetness. I more towards sweet smells. Now their signature collection body creams are just $5 each, great deal!!

Body Wash

I just started using this stuff and I'm in love. Ive been using dial as long as I remember, mainly the bar soap because it's antibacterial. The only thing about antibacterial soaps, they sucked the moisture right outta my skin. But regualr beauty bars sometimes would irritate my skin. Now Ive found something that is the best of both, it contains both antibacterial and moisturizing ingredients. I swear my skin has never felt cleaner or smoother and Ive tried alot of other stuff as well. And the smell is lovely. For some reason I have thing with jasmine. Since my name is yasmin(arabic for jasmine flower) I have an addiction to jasmine, weird connection right?

Perfume

I don't but perfume on a regular basis but a few that I sooo want right now (hint, hint to the hubby) I've been wanting this ever since I smelled it in a magazine last year and for some reason I still haven't got it. But it's definitely on my want list. It's a very fun and playful fragrance. Here are a few of the notes: water lily, lady apple, mandarin meringue, and golden apricot skin are melded with sheer floral notes, accented with dark chocolate, pink frosting accord, amber, warm woods, musk, and vanilla-sounds good enough to eat.

Also

My fave for a long time, Miss Dior Cherie by Dior, of course. I love the very feminine and romatic smell it has. Top notes are wild strawberry leaves and green tangerine. The heart features caramel popcorns surrounded by violets, wild strawberry, and pink jasmine( gotta love that jasmine). The base is created of fresh patchouli leaves and crystalline musk. Don't you just love the bottle. I have a thing for pretty bottles. This is the original one. They have just recently put ot Miss Dior Cherie Eau de Printemps. I don't like it that much, has a bit more of an orangey smell which I don't like. This is more of a fall/winter fragrance but hey in the house, it can be any season you want.

You can buy these frangrances at Sephora, Dillard's, or Macy's.

I just recently decided to change my face scrub and this stuff is like magic in a bottle. My skin is so much clearer and smoother, and less oily thanks to this stuff. I guess those Neutrogena commercials don't lie, because Im surely a believer.

You Are Having a Brown Day

Today you are your normal responsible, serious self. You're getting done what needs to be done. And you're not too worried about how you're feeling. While you're all business, you are still warm and approachable. You are busy, but you're not too busy for a little fun down time.

What Color Day Are You Having?

Okay this quiz is an absolute lie, normal, serious self, not worried about how I feel, yea right. It's like this test was mainly made for happy people because the choices were all choices like content, peaceful, confident, nothing like angry, pissed, underweather. What happened to the angry people choices. I'm feeling a bit more on the red side. They need to write a disclaimer/warning for this quiz:-

WARNING. Take this quiz only if you are feeling normally happy and content. Do not take this quiz if you show any signs of depression, anger, violence, emotional upset, or any other emotion besides happy. Failure to do so might end up with false results and may result in you cursing us. We are not responsible for any ill feelings you may have for you have been forwarned.

I know it's only a quiz and what's the probability of it accurately telling you how you feel? Just felt like letting off a little steam, so Im taking it out on the quiz. Better than taking it out on a person cuz that won't be pretty. But at least it makes wanna get a mood ring. Don't you remember those?

Ok let me stop before this post ends up sounding crazier than it already does.

Random Thoughts

I haven't really had the will to blog, I guess we all get to that point. I have post that Im still working on but kinda procrastinating.

I don't know Im just feeling blah right now, Ive been feeling that way for the past 2 days. You think I should be in that whole newlywed marital bliss but its like been there done that.

Im just not feeling myself especially today. Im usually outgoing, smiley, laughing but today I dont wanna do any of that. Im probably moping about what I don't know. I feel sick, my head is hurting, Im feeling awfully tired, I don't have an appetite for anything, my stomach is hurting, I feel hormonal, and it's not that time of the month. Maybe I should see a psychologist, maybe there's something wrong or maybe its just all in my head. I feel so run down.

Sorry for all the rambling but this the one place I feel I can let out my feelings and emotions. Insha'Allah I'll feel better.