Sunday, March 29, 2009

Bear With Me

Im sorry I haven't been posting as much, I wish I could but my body doesn't let me at this point. Its like one day Im feeling okay and the next I take a spiral plunge, just back and forth. I just wanted to let you guys no that I haven't disappeared. Im still here just waiting for a day that I feel a bit better. Im not all that great today but I just feel guilty for just leaving everyone hanging out there and worrying about me. Insha'Allah I'll be fully back soon. Just keep me in your dua's. Don't hesitate to e-mail me for I do check me e-mail everyday-I guess its habit or maybe waiting for good news ;). May Allah keep you all safe and well insha'Allah. Love ya

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Another Moment of Randomness

Finally Im feeling well enough and have the energy to post. I've just been Miss crazy lady trying to get a lot of things done and settle into my new life in a new place. Its been exciting and hard. Hard because I don't know anybody and I haven't really been to the masjid yet, insha'Allah this Friday I will and meet new sisters.
Life can be a bit crazy at times but hey that's life right. There's so much going on that I won't talk about here, but in time I will. I'm trying to stay as positive as possible. I don't wanna see here and reflect so much on the negative things. All that does is just sends you into a spiraling depression to the point you don't know how to get out of it. And I refuse to be depress about anything. I tell myself all the time 'Don't worry be happy" and hey it works 99% of the time except when Im just in a crappy mood, which is rare, and I just don't give a damn about anything. But that's nothing a huge ice cream sundae or a Caramel Frappucino or strawberry cheesecake can't fix :). Yes sugar makes me happy. At times a little to happy. It is addictive and I consider it to be a drug. If I have way too much sugar, I start bouncing of the walls and can't stop. Yes I have issues but hey it makes me unique so I'm not complaining.
I'm a bit homesick. I miss NYC. Its hard not too. Growing up in a big city with all the bright lights and everything moving at the speed of light and being in vast mix of people, who wouldn't love it. I'm a city girl at heart, but I love the piece and quiet too and listening to the birds chirp instead of blaring car horns or rush hour traffic. I miss the people in all of their craziness. NYC is one heck of a place, so different than anything else in the world. Everything is easy, everything is accessible, and everything is damn expensive to but you'll learn the trick of everything once you're settled there. Its not too hard. You can't really stand out to much there because there's so much uniqueness and diversity that everyone just blends in. Except for the few wild ones here and there.
Besides the point I plan on visiting mid-April. I'm happy my mom will have a whole week off so I can spend as much time as I can. Last time I went, it drew me crazy and I couldn't wait to leave because it was so freaking cold. When I first left NY it was still summer with 75 degree temperature and where I left to was like 85 for that month. Once you leave NY, its so hard too adjust to the climate again. Being here in the South it doesn't get that cold and Im being really spoiled, especially since this whole weekend has been 80 degrees. An early spring present. I can't wait to visit all my friends, go visit the masjids I use to go to, definitely go shopping, and most importantly eat!! NYC has some really good halal restaurants and there are plenty in number. I think that's one of the things I miss the most. Where I live at now, there are a few here and there but they aren't that great. Now in NY, within a mile radius you can easily have your Arab food, Indian food, Soul food, Italian, and Chinese. Yes a halal Chinese Restaurant and there food is unbelievably awesome. Can;'t wait to get my hands on that.
Okay let me stop talking about food because I'm making myself hungry and maybe you too. Insha'Allah can't wait to visit home and have fun.
Speaking of traveling I'm planning on going to Paris and Morocco this summer. Am I excited? I'd be crazy if I wasn't. I've never been outta the country before and I've always wanted to travel, so why not? I might as well take the opportunity while I'm still breathing. I'll let you know how that'll turn out.
Thanks again for tuning into another post of the randomness. See you next time :)

Thursday, March 5, 2009

It's Been Tooooooo Long

Please forgive me for the pretty long disappearance. Fortunately I wasn't kidnapped, nor did I suffer from a severe illness, alhamdulillah. My crazy Internet service provider aka AT&T, screwed up my internet service for the past 2 weeks and didnt fix it until today. Gotta love those people. Im just grateful that problem has been solved after numerousd phone calls and a little unpolite behavior at times.
It feels good to be back. Ive so missed blogworld. I wonder how would life be without the Internet? It would be one lonely world and indeed it was for a short period of time. I mean not being to e-mail, blog, or do anything. I guess we are just pretty spoiled people. I feel complete now that its back on. Do you think that's a sad thing to say, especially there are many people in the word who don't even have a telephone and they are still surviving just nicely? The world revolves around technology. Yes life becomes easier with it, but we also become slaves to it. I realized when I haven't been able to access the Internet, I had a lot more time to read the Islamic books that have been collecting dust, was able to read a lot more Qur'an then I normally did, had more time to devout to voluntary prayers. Insha'Allah I'll try to continue it and wont let things try to distract me again. But we are only human and no one is perfect, right?
On another note, Im doing well, have been feeling better. Been making progress with things and loving my semi-independence right now. I realized sometimes the bad things that seem to happen to us turn out to be the exact thing that we needed.