Alhamdulillah, I turn 22 today. Im not a birthday person and I don't celebrate it. Please don't jump on me like your being extreme. But the hadith goes, "If you imitate a people, then you are of them." And celebrating birthdays is an imitation of the disbelievers, so I try to avoid it at all cost. Now whoever celebrates it, Im never gonna point my finger and say oh that's haraam!! To each his own and if thats what you wanna do, Im okay with it. There isnt too much harm in it. But thats besides the point. Everyone has their own opinion and I respect it.
Twenty-two years sounds like a long time, but time has flew by so quickly. A lot has changed within the past year. This day last year I was married to my first husband, 2 months pregnant, couldn't stand anything lol, and learning more about my deen. I was a bit naive back then, but I guess we all go thru it. Im just grateful that Im able to see another year and to be who I am. The year before last on this day, I remember clearly. I had to be to wrok at 6am. Talk about early. Then afterwards I went shopping because I was going out later that night with a few friends to have fun on my birthday. Of course, I was wearing something I shouldn't have. I was one of those hijabis who had on the skinny jeans short shirts, and hijab. What the hell was I thinking. I was so into my looks. I always had to have a nails done, i didnt really wear make-up, but my clothes had to be up to par. Looking back, Im just grateful Allah SWT saved me from myself and saved me from the life I was living. That's the greatest gift I have ever received. Im a completely different person now and I wouldn't go back to who I was for nothing. You'd probably have to kill me before that I ever happened.
And the older you get the wiser you become. Im also learning that no matter how many years of preparation you may have, you are still never ready when a certain situation arises. ts why Ive learned to live in the moment and just take everything as it comes. Im not a planner and never really been. I like things of the spontaneous kind. I know I still I have a lot to learn, insha'Allah with each passing year, I can take one step closer to being closer to Allah.