I cried soo hard last night. I can't remember the last time I ever cried like that. Im just sad, angry, but most of all hurt. Im feeling the hurt more than anything else. I think the reality of everything has sunk in and it completely sucks. I hate feeling this way but right now I can't help it. I wish things were different. I wish I didn't feel this way. I feel like doing nothing but crying, like there is just a dark cloud hovering over me everywhere I go. May Allah ease my pain.