Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Feelings

I cried soo hard last night. I can't remember the last time I ever cried like that. Im just sad, angry, but most of all hurt. Im feeling the hurt more than anything else. I think the reality of everything has sunk in and it completely sucks. I hate feeling this way but right now I can't help it. I wish things were different. I wish I didn't feel this way. I feel like doing nothing but crying, like there is just a dark cloud hovering over me everywhere I go. May Allah ease my pain.

11 comments:

Halal Honey said...

I'm soo sorry Yasmin!! May Allah (S.W.T.) ease your pain. Ameen.

Naimah Umm Khadijah said...

Assalamu 'alaykum sister, I just come across your blog, and just read about your current situation. May Allaah make things easy for you, and remove your sadness and replace it with happiness, Ameen.

theblogofmissa said...

aslaam alaikum,

May Allah make this time easy for you. Take comfort knowing that Allah is always with you. If there is anything I can do, let me know. Take good care of yourself sis.

Desert-Veil said...

Assalamu Alaikum My Sweet Sister,
May Allah (swt) help ease your pain and make things easier for you as you go through this. Remember that when comfort is needed, He is always there for us no matter what time it is to turn to and seek assistance and comfort from. Also; know that your sisters in deen are here for you as well and if you need anything all you have to do is ask :o) **Sending Special Hugs Your Way** Take Care Sis!

M.J. said...

Salam Alaykom rahmantuAllah wa baraktoh Sister, I'm sooo sorry!!! :( Know that I'm always here for you if you need me and you're in my duas. More importantly Allah swt is ALWAYS there for you. Just trust that Allah swt will never give you too much for you to handle and that only He knows what there is in store for you! InshAllah things will start to get better for you soon sis.

Umm Travis said...

Ameen to the duaas.

I understand how you are feeling my sister, the same thing happened to me right after converting to Islam. It is so hard, and a big, big test from Allah, but take some time to feel your pain, then move forward in Allah's grace. He is with you, protecting you, so dont be afraid.

All my love sister, we are all here for you anytime for anything.

Habayeb said...

May Allah ease your pain sis, do know that everything *always* gets better if we ask Allah's help. *Hugs*

Zaenab said...

hope you feel better soon ^-^

Yasmin said...

Ameen and thanks again soo much. Insha'Allah I'll be fine, I just need to find another direction to take. Im just gonna take to myself now and just focus on me. Im not gonna go back to NY right now. I kinda wanna stay away from my family because they aren't gonna be very helpful in the healing procees and it just cause mre harm than good. But I'll see where Allah (SWT) guides me. After I heal, the next step is to find a job.

Inspired Muslimah said...

I am sooo sorry for what you are going through yasmin.I will certainly pray for you and for ALLAH to not only ease your pain but give you some clarification so you may move on, Inshallah and be ok. I cant imagine what your experiencing right now but Allah (S.W.T) knows best and so this must be something you needed to experience and I know that is soo cliche but its the truth. Allah heals all wounds and go to Allah in your time of distress, for only allah can comfort you through such a rough situation. Keep your head up and be proud of yourself for being such a strong woman of faith and knowing how and when to make difficult decisions that some even older than you dont have the maturity to make.

hijabee said...

I made duahs for you Yasmin and inshallah I will keep making duahs for you! You will be alright inshallah! And you're right, the only person you need to focus on right now is you! Don't worry about anything else or anyone else, try to get it together and think about what direction you want to take and things you want to do. Take your time, and take it day by day