Thursday, November 6, 2008

Just Another Random Post

Im feeling so down and out today, why, I have no idea. I don't feel doing anything. I struggled to get up this morning, my body was aching, I had to force myself to pray (subhanAllah), I didn't wanna talk to my husband, I didnt even wanna be around him. Even last night before I went to bed, I locked the bedroom door so he wouldn't come in. Yea its bad. Did he do something? Maybe or maybe it's just me letting out my anger in a very quiet way. Sometimes I feel like I have some type of resentment towards him for no reason, like Im angry at him. Maybe its a deeper issue. maybe its because I feel like Im not being treated how I need to be treated. Just make dua for me.

12 comments:

Umm Travis said...

Oh sis :( Sounds horrible. May Allah make it easy for you and guide you to that which is best, Ameen

May I also suggest the duaa and even the "resentment workout" which I myself am doing? I feel a lot lighter, humdullah and understand my feelings better.

Anyway, listen to the lecture and read the duaa, it really is a great relief in shaaAllah

http://teabreakthoughts.blogspot.com/2008/11/fresh-new-day.html

And please sis, if I can do anything else, let me know. I am your sister, and you are not alone.

Habayeb said...

Salaam sis
I pray everything gets alright for you.

M.J. said...

Awww, Sis, inshAllah you'll feel better soon. Try going for a walk if it's not too cold out where you are (it's like 70 here) or just sleep in. Try not to dwell in this feeling. You must feel awful! :/

hijabee said...

Funny how I exactly feel the same way right now!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yasmin said...

Salaams everyone..thanks. Im kinda feeling like I dont wanna be here, like I wanna be home. Its very hard to explain. I just feel like screaming right now. Its kinda like the feeling that my husband doesn't love me at all and Im just such a low priority. Can u believe that ever since we got married we haven't said I love u to each other, I just realized that the other day.

Umm Travis, Im definitely going to try that out. I definitely need something to make me feel better. Insha'Allah it'll help. Thank you soo much

Habayeb, shukran ya ukhti.

MJ, I should go for a walk and i think its like 77 here so its a pretty nice day but I dont like walking around here cuz I dont like the people too much, but we'll see.
Hijabee, thanks sis, at least now I know Im not crazy for feeling the way I do.

Mina said...

Inshallah I'll remember you in my duaa's sis...hang in there, but you talk to each other whatever it is, I promise you it will help:)no point keeping things bottled up!!! Have it out with him, tell him how you feel...its the only way to make him understand, in the mean time read some surah's in the Qu'ran it will calm you down atleast.

Zaenab said...

dont worry yasmin you'll feel better soon. maybe your still angry at him about the whole bed thing. btw why dont to go on a honey moon? it would probs make you feel better lol

JannaH said...

Have you ever felt like your extremely angry at him for no apparant reason and your always trying to find a reason to get mad at him? You feel like you HAVE to be angry with him that you have to have some type of negative feeling towards him...I feel the exact same way except with me its most of the time. Usually when he does something i dont like it just escalates into a stupid argument when in the first place he didnt do anything THAT bad.. i used to think it was just me and i was the cause of all the problems, most of the time i do feel that way, however i just cant seem to get that feeling out of my head. You have my email babe if u need my number you can take it as well, im here for u inshallah. Its so ironic how we have so many things in common. Inshallah you will get through this, if you come up with a way please share :)

Cecilia said...

I think we all feel like this sometimes, it does not have to have something to do with your husband really, maby it´s more about you than about him... I know that is how it is for me anyway.... or maby there is something deeper?
I hope you will feel better soon!

Halal Honey said...

Aw, I hope you feel better soon!
btw, just thought I'd let you know-ur following my old blog 'niqabi girl' instead of 'halal honey':) in case you wanted to change that cuz i deleted the niqabi girl blog.

Inspired Muslimah said...

Sorry sis, I hope your feeling better. i have these same days and I have no idea why. Its like I just wake up feeling down and I dont want to be bothered with no one and then it passes but Inshallah your feeling better now.

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