Well where do I start? There is so much to say.*sighs* Here I go. Ive decided, well mutually decided to end our marriage (we decided to just end it by khula). I know it seems so sudden and you may say you've only been married a month? But trust me this was the right thing to do. The reason why is becaus it started to turn into a loveless marriage. Why continue to be with someone that has very little attraction to you. You need that in order to make a marriage work. Love, emotion, all plays into that factor and it was surely lacking. Im kinda suprise that Im taking this well, I guess becuase I saw it coming but just didn't want to admit to it. We are just not meant for each other. We are two different people who see things different ways.
Am I hurt? Yeah I cant lie about that because its the last thing I wanted, especially me being married before and that ending in divorce, for good reason. I know this happened for the best. At least we were honest with each other instead of carrying on acting like everything was okay when it really wasnt. I would of felt deceived then. I mean we weren't mean to each other, we never hurt each other, none of that craziness. Some things just dont work out, some people are just not meant to be together. Im accepting of what Allah has decreed even though I wish things were different. Alhamdulillah he is a great man, very respectful, religious. I have nothing bad to say about him and never will. But I guess I need more outta of marriage and he saw he wasn't giving me what I deserved. So instead of being miserable, we just let it go. There's no hard feelings at all. And we've talked through everything and everything will be find. I'll be okay. Life goes on and there's probably someone better out there for me, just haven't found them yet. Insha'Allah I will. But Im not gonna fret I put my trust in Allah. Hopefully the third time is a charm.