Please don't get weirded out by the post title. I don't have a yeast infection or a crazy skin condition lol. The itch I'm talking about is the baby itch. Some of you know what I'm talking about. That feeling that you just wanna have a child of your own to love and care for. It's funny cuz that feeling usually comes around when you spend a lot of time around another persons child, and for me I can't even tell the last time I was around a baby, maybe back in Ramadan at the masjid. Maybe I could be wrong but Im having that feeling.
I really dont wanna rush things. Im enjoying being newly married and spending time with my husband. People say that I should wait and just enjoy my marriage and enjoy each other first because once a child comes along everything is gonna change. I completely agree with it and I don't wanna rush anything but it's like my soul is craving a child, for lack of better words. I fully understand the responsibility that I child requires and that its not easy but there is so much blessing to it.
In my previous marriage, I became pregnant early on, about 2 months after we had gotten married. I ended up miscarrying around 2 1/2-3 months. Yea it was sad, but it was the qadr of Allah and now I see why it happened.
I've talked to my husband about it even before we got married and he said he's caught between 2 things. He said he wants to wait til after he finishes grad school, which is next year, but then on the other hand he really wants to have a child now, just one, and also to get his mom offhis back. You know how mothers are when they want grandchildren-thankfully my mom isn't part of that group but I know she'll be happy either way. I then asked him again after we got married and he said he wants to have children pretty soon.
So now Im thinking is soon like weeks, months away? Yea I know Im crazy but like I said it's that damn itch that won't go away. It's getting so bad that Im watching all those baby shows, like the one on TLC A Baby Story. I think he watched it with me, maybe he got the hint because honestly in a way that's what I was hoping to do. I would just accidently stumble across the show while channel surfing and become interested like Ive never seen it before. I know Im bad lol.
Insha'Allah, in the near future you might be reading about a bun in hte oven, but for now I'll try to be a bit more patient.
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i think you should enjoy eachothers company for now because of your husbands schooling as well, having a child now could be rushing things a little. But thats just my opinion, Insha'Allah whatever is best for you will happen :D
red eyes: we know who salman rushdie is and we know his stupid views. we dont need any salman rushdie satanic fans here. go away with your shaytan.
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i think let it come as god wills. if he gives you a child tomorrow or next year then so be it - as long as your happy!
congrats again on the new marriage
I agree with Ange!!:-)
Thanks, you are right. I should just leave in Allah SWT hands. Whatever happens, happens. If it's meant for to have a child, insha'Allah I will and if not, then so be it.
Oh yea..thanks for being my blog bodyguard Ange lol ;)
she asked me about his books as well, are they satanic? iv never heard of them..
Assalamu Alaikum Yasmin, I understand bc I have that same itch. However I am not yet married so my itch will have to wait. I think its wonderful but It may be a good idea to take a few months so you and your husband can enjoy one another but Allah knows best so if its meant to happen you will be blessed with one soon. Good luck!
I think this itch is contagious coz I have the same itch and the same questions that you're raising are on my mind. To wait or not to wait? But I guess in the end Allah decides for us!
Yep exactly Hijabee. Allah knows the perfect time for us. Insha'Allah I'll try to be patient. I should let my husband know what's on my mind (even tho I let him read my blog from time to time, he thinks blogging is a great thing, but he hasn't read this post yet) cuz I don't wanna do something he isnt ready for yet. So I know both of us need to be ready, but Im beyond ready right now
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